Finally i'm posting something happy and un-sad haha ^^

Went to SBG with bb twice this week, wednesday and saturday(i hope you're not bored,sorry!). Suddenly have the urge to enjoy nature because everywhere is so boring and there's nothing else to do. Yeap, little things like feeding swans and birds make me happy. Posted some of my favourite pictures because there's way too many. & i think my pictures suck although i'm using a dslr -.- need to improve, haha. oh well..






birds fighting for bread they were all so close to me, so cute!






swans with many many catfish fighting for bread (:






huge spider.


The ball of SBG i used to play when i was a kid. it's forever there even after 10 years(Y)

All the pictures was from wednesday, didn't take pics ytd because i only brought my lousy camera out and the pictures are ugly. haha. Yesterday was super tiring because we walked from SBG via nassim road(huge, super nice houses for the rich) to orchard! I nearly died although it was about 20 mins walk? Stayed in orchard for awhile before cabbing to lavender to eat my honey prata but to find out it closed down!! FML. so upset :( ended up eating bachormee and dessert at bugis. Anyway, i wanted to drink koi too but it was so crowded at tpy and bugis. sian! :( weekend is not the right time to buy koi. Ended up having icecream at marble slab and home. Thank you bb for the day spent i'm sure you enjoyed it too (L)

xx

All i want is a hug, and a little more love.
unrequited love?
i.want.to.disappear.right.now.because.i.really.don't.know.what.to.do.
the.future.seems.so.bleak.and.harder.than.i.thought.
s.i.g.h

:(

will.you.still.love.me?

xx

Through the rain

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved

But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close
Don't be afraid, there's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
As I live once again
And I live one more day
I can make it through the rain
Yes you can
You gonna make it through the rain

To love is to risk a broken heart,
but she was willing to risk it all.

Smile, because it happened.

xoxoxo

Read this somewhere.

Boyfriend/Girlfriend Centered:

This may be the easiest trap of all to fall into. I mean, who hasn't been centered on a boyfriend or girlfriend at one point?

Let's pretend Brady centers his life on his girlfriend, Tasha. Now, watch the instability it creates in Brady.

Tasha makes a rude comment, Brady thinks "My day is ruined."
Tasha flirts with Brady's best friend, Brady thinks "I've been betrayed. I hate my friend."
Tasha says "I think we should date other people.", Brady thinks "My life is over. You don't love me anymore."

The ironic thing is that the more you center your life on someone, the more unattractive you become to that person. How's that? Well, first of all, if you're centered on someone, you're no longer hard to get. Second, it's irritating when someone builds their entire emotional life around you. Since their security comes from you and not from within themselves, they always need to have those sickening "where do we stand" talks.

When I began dating my wife, one of the things that attracted my most was that she didn't center her life on me. I'll never forget the time she turned me down (with a smile and no apology) for a very important date. I loved it! She was her own person and had her own inner strengths. Her moods were independent of mine.

You can usually tell when a couple becomes centered on each other because they are forever breaking up and getting back together. Although their relationship has deteriorated, their emotional lives and identities are so intertwined that they can never fully let go of each other.

Believe me, you'll be a better boyfriend or girlfriend if you're not centered on your partner. Independence is more attractive than dependence.Besides, centering your life on another doesn't show that you love them, only that you're dependent on them.

Have as many girlfriends or boyfriends as you'd like, just don't get obsessed or centered on them, because, although there are exceptions, these relationships are usually about as stable as a yo-yo.

Sean Covey; Author

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To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return,
To live is to risk dying,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

William Arthur Ward

Why am I so jinxed that all my cats has to go missing!!! :(
Twinkie bb i miss you veryveryvery much will you please come back?!
Sigh, i shall just blame myself from being a bad owner.
IDK I JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE TWINKIE WAS MY HAPPINESS AFTER THE LOST OF KACHANG WHICH I ALMOST DIED OF DEPRESSION. :( now what?
now it's double the depression cause i'm missing both of them so badly!












and school starting on thursday doesn't even help at all. even though it's a 3 day week. :(
someone tell me i'm not going to die! :\ Sigh.

Lesson #1: If a guy does not how to treat a girl right, don't even expect the girl to treat him right. The amount of tears a girl waste because a guy does not treat her right cannot beat how bad the girl treats him, for sure.


One thing for sure, I would look back life with no regrets.

If anybody is going to ask how I am, I wouldn't even know how to tell you.
As cliche as it sounds, I'm of course going to say I'm alright. I'm lying, because I don't know how to explain. To keep it simple, the best way is to say you're fine with a smile. The times I'm feeling alright, are the times where I don't know how to describe those feelings. It's the times when I'm down where I would need someone to talk to. (But won't happen because I've got nobody to talk to)

I talk to myself, cry to myself and hallucinate to myself.

Why are flaws > flawless/attributes/perfection

I read somewhere..
'Something can have more than one flaw, but it can't have more than one perfection.'

In the first place, there isn't anything called 'perfection'. Perfection doesn't exist because nothing is perfect. Humans weren't meant to be perfect. You can try to be, but don't expect the world to be. How long can you be bothered by the actions of another? 1. Ignore 2. Move on
I can't talk about this in general context because there are other factors you will/have to consider in like love/upbringing/mindset/etc. idk if this makes sense but whatever, it's just my food for thought.

Everybody live by their own different quotes/guidelines/rules/procedures/etc. Don't judge others by how they live their lives, don't judge others by why they behave in a certain manner or their way of doing things. (don't criticize because you wouldn't like others to criticize your way of life either). Hate people who judge. Because i think they don't have any rights to judge because they don't know what's going on and they won't understand. You can comment(it's human nature), but get over it! Your life isn't about judging how others live their life, it's about YOURS! Do what you think is right, and just get over it.

Sorry i'm ranting because i've got nobody to talk to. I'm happy ranting to my own blog because it will never agree/disagree with me ^^ I'm more than happy to live my life without guilt, i don't ever think i can feel guilty. I may be the lousiest, i may be sad for life, but there's nothing i would regret doing/not doing. I don't think i'll ever live my life with regrets even if i die now. I like me for this. (: I like that i can be strong/weak at times when i really want to be. I can choose to do this/that, feel this way/that way, it's just whether i want to.

I just be myself. Thankyouverymuch.

All that i'm left with is,

1. Me and my insecurities
2. A bleeding heart and
3. A suicidal soul

Happy 9th. (:

Though you can be a bitch at times, i still love you more than ever.
Happy that i spend the most time with you, and i'm more than satisfied with that.
Thank you, babyboy (L)
Sorry for all the bitching i gave you, the times i pissed/upset you.
All you have to do is look at our pictures and smile k? ^^
Don't be angry cause you know i'm all worthwhile (:
P.S Don't bully me anymore k :( and don't be a bitch because i can be a bitchier bitch. haha!

Love you to bits~
xoxoxo