ugh. i'm feeling so pissed everyday.
i dont know why. every little thing piss me off.
i feel so crap.
i better learn to get a hold of myself, and not be pissed so easily.
maybe its all the little little things that add up to everything.
maybe its just the past.
i cant let all these things hinder my everything.
cause its a kind of blockage to my mood and blah.
and it affects my studies and everything.
okay, i dont know what i'm talking about. [:
shermaine must be happy (:

today, we dint have to go for lessons because of co.
so we practiced in the morning. then performed during chapel
it was so embarrasing please. and stop laughing at that pink thing.
damn ugly i know. i dont care, its already over.
syf is gonna be over soon anyway. :D
we have 3-4 days left ! omg. die please.
and mrchua keeps asking us to move. its kinda stupid, but must have feel for the music.
and when we are on stage, i dont think we can have that feel.
everyone's obviously going to be like how nervous.
HAHA. so dumb.

there's no lessons on monday too!
and we can report to school at 9 on tuesday ! (:
i know i'll miss out alot, but nevermind.
after syf, i'll concentrate all on studies. finally (:
prepare for midyear, i'm so scared. sigh ):
i dont like socialstudies. i dred that lesson the most.
its the most yuck subject. :
i have to go bathe & eat.
GOODBYE.

you are like being dump in the sewage

okay, i stole the pictures from felicia's blog.

hehe thank you. (: i love you people.

finally we get to take a neoprint with all inside. (:

the times we shared will be etched in our memories.

i've not blog for a zillion days. i'm deprived of blogging.

i didnt have time at all, i've not been able to use the comp.

hectic schedule with all the craps and lobsters.

the past two weeks have been shit, i hate it alot.

really pissed off and sad for some reasons.

dont ask why. [: sigh

syf's on tuesday. i'm so scared ! and tomorrow we have to full dress performance during chapel.

and that is not fun at all. imagine walking up the stage with that pink thing.

omg, and worst of all its upper sec. how stupid, but nvm

its gonna be over soon ! :D

its my last day of school today until syf. no lessons tomorrow and monday.

we can practice in the morning when everyone's having lesson !

(: -beams

no 2hours of chemistry. but i'll try to catch up :

somehow, i'm really really pissed off today.

literally. i've never been like that this year.

everything's pissing me off so much.maybe its just me.

i cant take it anymore, i've to let everything out.

i'm just being emo. whatever. ):

this is how much i can hold on to. i cant keep on controlling my tears and everything.

blah. <:

ihateyou

ihateyou

ihateyou

ihateyou

ihateyou

ieffinghateyou.

please dont ask me who is it.

i freaking dont have privacy.

you have to ruin everything,

you have to invade my everything.

ihateyousomuchtheworldcantcontain. pffftt!

turn around

stab,

and disappear.

motivations fade,habits prevail. (:

P&C is Fun ! :D

this is so random, but nvm

i havent blog for a week, and now i have to go ):
crap.

let me enjoy this last inch of my holiday ):
school starts tomorrow and it sucks so much.
sigh ):
i've not prepared anything for school, i dont know what to bring.
who cares anyway. heheh :D

i wont be able to use the comp for the next few days, maybe the whole week
brother's going chalet tomorrow. for 3 days ! pfftt
so unfair please. their holiday is like so long [:
UGH. compared to my one week of shit !
whatever.
@#$%^&*()@#$%^&*(

anyway, churched as usual.
and we were playing with chops during service. HAHA
so like after service i went cwp alone. and i walk up and down like dont know how many times.
i was being so indecisive, i dont know what i want. went home and slept again !
(: i'm so bored now.
i'm gonna grow fat althought i dont eat my dinner and whatever.
but i ate so many snacks la. island creamery brandied cherry ! yum :D
for the sake of co, i chop of my nails ): so sad .
i must look forward to school tomorrow !
i hope it will be quite slack. cause i'm still in my holiday mood !
((: hahaha.
co tomorrow again ! [: i have to enjoy this last 2 weeks of co until syf is over.
and i will not be able to go co again. somehow i regret not loving co last time.
how stupid right ? okay nevermind.
goodbye, i'm gonna conference with someone.
:D


for how long am i gonna tell myself
"shermaine, please dont cry . "
i'm just trying to be strong,
but one day i'll just die.

i just realised i have 300 over post in this blog.
didnt know i posted that much (:
i managed to go out yesterday, for once ! (:
how pathetic my holiday can be. i know it sucks.

yesterday:
slack at home almost the whole time, wanted to study
but didnt in the end ): i'm like how lazy.
went to candy house for awhile. and i played yangqin.
i know i can play but i will learn one day :D
went home,changed and all.
went out at 4 plus.
met dg at taka for seoul garden. in the end didnt ate there cause it was like 26 bucks!?
end up eating at paragon's sushi tei. YUM (:
walked around and back to taka and got pretzel ! (:
i wasnt that full actually.
anyhow, went back home at 9 and reached home around 10 ?

today, end up slacking at home again.
despite my wants to study failed ! [:
i just cant bring myself to study. so i just packed my table.
i just want to enjoy the last minute of my holiday ):
sigh!
end up doing nothing the whole day. seriously NOTHING.
<: only went to cwp with my mum & grandma.
i want to buy a new phone ! and change my plan ! rawr :
i'm bored , i'm so so bored.
and tomorrow's the last day of this useless holiday ):
my next two weeks gonna be packed for SYF.
and i cant remember what tests i'm gonna have.
i've not been practicing my amath. i'm so gonna die when school starts.
cause everything will be chaos and crappy. damn ; i hate it.
i feel so damn lazy, someone tell me how. how . how.
i need to get on with life and start studying hard.
pfffftttt

GOODBYE.
GOODNIGHT.
-runs

finally i can blog (:
monday&tuesday had co camp.
and maybe they should just change it to slack camp.
cause its the slackest camp i've ever been to. just this year only.
for once, i never complained i want to go home ! HAHA.
cause its like so fun slacking and playing yangqin ((:
i cant remember what i want to blog. okay nevermind.

so, today had co again ! :\
shouldnt have gone so early. waste my time !
cause we dont have individual group and we ended at slacking our time away.
pffffttt !
around 10 plus had big group. and ended around 12 plus.
and mslim was talking to pipa people again [: its always US.
and mrchua broke my heart cause he said pipa isnt nice ):
its like the nicest instrument on earth. hahaha
went cwp after that to print stuff and eat.
for so long, i didnt felt so FULL .
came home, practiced piano and slept. couldnt sleep at first.
but ended sleeping for so long. i'm so bored.
i feel so damn lazy i'm not doing any work. and i have school tomorrow.
time passes so fast. soon it will be end of holiday. just wasted away.
sigh ): i hate it i hate it alot. i dont want to go back to school ! rawr.
anyway, for the next 2 weeks will be hard core co practice. like 4 times a week?!
soon will be syf. i'm so scared ):
okay, i'm like talking crap here.
i can never end. GOODBYE (:





&thanks for making me smile each day
even when i'm not in the best of mood
you make me smile (:
<3

doesnt she melt your heart ? (:

cat/dog fight ! [:

i'm bored !

i stayed at home alone almost the whole day.

i have no where to go. parents went for wedding.

and i didnt want to go. so i was being good.

stayed at home to study. but i didnt do much.

distracted by many things. piano,magazines.and blah.

my book is open for show only. hahaha (:

i cant stop playing piano. just too nice.

mummy asked me to do my grade 5 after o level

cause she doesnt want me to keep playing piano now !

rawr ! =.=

whatever.

i rather not learn, so i will appreciate it more than ever.

i dont want to take things for granted. :D

i cant stop laughing. you know why.

HAHA i'm so slack today. although i wanted to study.

holiday next week. finally, but i dont have any holiday.

pfffttttt.

monday, tuesday, wednesday : CO ! :\

thursday : PHYSICS AND CHEMISTRY !

friday : should be no lessons. i hope so ):

this is why holiday sucks so much.

i dont look forward to monday at all.

UGH !

GOODBYE

DOGGY LOVE<3

i'm back from co and i'm using the comp (:
blogged halfway yesterday but i cancelled it cause my brother wanted to use.
bubbles is at my house now (: (: (:
and she was having a fight with the cat.
:D

yesterday had cip.
had to go to blocks and collect newspaper.
everyone wont want to open the door la.
so i ring the bell and walk off. so dumb [:
hehehe. had 1and a half hours to slack in school,so i slept.
blahblah.
i'm bored. i dont wanna go co camp on monday ! rawr ):
ohoh.chemistry practical was so damn fun.
had fun mixing all the chemicals. and ms devi told me off that i never do my experiment properly. cause i never add in excess. whatever =.=
hahaha. and i put ammonia hydroxide into my pen but it didnt get in.
(: (: (: (: i was so bored.
oisjwgdevswgwiaqopopopd
i dont know what to blog.i'm gonna eat my dinner.
GOODBYE !

7march2007. wednesday. A to Z motivational course (:

no post for 4 days.
i dont know how i survive. hehe (:
self discipline !
okay but today is my rest day.
haha actually everyday.
i relax alot on weekends. i realised i dont study at all on weekends
not even touching my books. [:
but weekdays is like so stressing. ugh ):
i feel quite relieved that all the tests are over for this term
i guess. and next week is holidays ((:
actually NOT.
damn co camp and remedials ): rawr !

had chinese oral yesterday, and as usual i screwed it.
i have no idea what i was crapping about.
i cant even read the damn passage properly !
i'm so so dumb please. it feels like i havent read chinese for years
i find it so hard to pronounce every single word. sigh ):
i'm so gonna fail damn badly. i used english.
cause everytime i use chinese i fail. hahaha
i cant even remember how to say experience in chinese
and economy ! dont laugh :\
my chinese is so so bad i dont know what to say.
and chinese Os is coming up. i want to die ): argh
had co after that. and home (:

no lessons today. only A-Z motivation course
whatever that is. leonard is so hilarious. hahaha
and it lasted from 7 plus to 2.40 ! so long
but at least it was quite interesting.
slept awhile for some time. but its like i dont want to miss anything
so i end up waking up and listen. he's quite interesting anyway.
fun too (: i realised setting goals is so important.
am i more motivated ? somehow somewhat. maybe.
hah. i just want to be a veterinarian or somewhat.
-dreams :D
had physics test after that. i'm just bound to fail again.
i really dont know what i was writing. it always look like nonsense to me.
i freaking dont have confidence at all.
i dont like to say i've studied or what. cause when i see the results, it doesnt look as if i've studied. i rather say i'd DIDNT STUDY AT ALL .
self comforting. improving by one mark is still improve !
CIP tomorrow. i dont wanna go ! collecting newspaper is like shit .
pffttt. nvm, i shall just go. i NEED to anyway. heh

let the facade crumble, and tears fall
because your ignorance tells it all
baby, everything's isnt so fine
i picked myself from the gravel
& i will not let myself fall again
i realised it all

02march2007, friday. chemistry mock exam 1 tomorrow. ):

i'm so tired. i feel like sleeping.
and i cant believe i'm not studying tonight.
omg, but i somehow studied already. during co
i know i'm dead for it, like i'm so gonna fail or what.
but i'll just do my best somewhat. sigh ):
i bet its gonna be damn difficult. whatever.
and amath after mock exam. i want to sleep !
i havent done my homework yet.
no point anyway, when i'm gonna just faint after seeing it.
and i haven even tried or see the question.
i'm super super lazy. [: ugh !

but i will definately put in my best effort and do well.
i got 8/35 for amath test and teacher put excellent.
wonderful. (: i improve alot i know.
my march holidays is ruined, i know.
remedials from monday to wednesday, like normal school day.
damn. but co camp is gonna disallow me from attending.
stupid. i'm gonna miss alot of lessons ! ):
but i dont mind not going for chinese. no point.
hahaha. i'm so dead for chinese O lvls. (:
yet, i'm still so happy go lucky.
all the best to me please . heehee :D

arghh. i want to die ! :\
i have to go, maybe revise chemistry.
boring, goodbye (:
DONT EAT MY CANDY ! I'LL EAT YOU UP FIRST.
HAHA (:

i'm turned off by you.
stop being sucha whatever.
now, i get what everyone is trying to say.
the pot calling the kettle black.

28february2007. 2am post (:

its 2am now.
and i'm still awake.
cause i cant sleep just now, so i decided to study.
and so, i did many vectors questions.
i'm so proud of myself.
i'm also gonna be proud to fail my test tomorrow.
hahaha (:
so, all the best to me.
chemistry fail, emath fail ):

it sucks when i study so hard, and i still fail
it seems like everything i do is WRONG.
totally wrong. [: sigh
blame it on me, the way i study.
ugh, i'm so stressed.
i have so many million things to do.
i have not done a single homework yet. ):
mock exam on saturday, i'm dead dead dead deadddd.
cause i've studied no shit.
but i'm willing to put in my best effort by blogging at this time.
yeah right. actually studying okayy. (:
heehee.

i have a super long day tomorrow.
ugh. i'd better sleep now.
GOODNIGHT. sweetcandy.
(:

you will never get to see the tears i cry,
cause i hide it all inside