devoid. remorsed. eng paper tomorrow. 28sept06

rarr
finally can use the comp.
when i'm not supposed to and my english exam is like tomorrow.
its super super sooo important.
like if i fail ill just retain. sigh :(
so i better get my arse off and study.
you may be thinking whats there to study for english ?
ohwell, there's like so so many stuff
speeches and vocabs. oh sheesh.
i'm freaking scared now.
only 1hr45mins to write 2 essays.
pfftt what on earth.
i'm so so paranoid now.

gahh
and i guess life has been ------
i dont know ?
oh-so-crappy and all.
and i dont have a life. :(
study and study everyday.
i'm going mad,seriously.
i'm devoid of something i guess.
grrr
i so cant wait for eoys to end.
and shandong trip.
heehee (:

& i guess all you girls are the source of my life
& i love you loads (:
<3
goodbye

oh i so hate life. sigh. amath camp over ! 23sept06saturday

i'm in remorse
sighhh

like there's no life on earth thats perfect
and there's for sure one unhappy time.
its for us to get through it,
and to overcome it
i guess i have been living a spoilt and blessed life
its time i get back to reality.
always relying on others
gah. its difficult, very.
i admit

but do i have a choice ?
God left me this life.
and i shall trust in Him that He will be there for me
and all the time.
whether smile or frown
or in tears
i always know he's there.

everyday i could feel that pain inside
tears in my eyes
i hide it inside
crimson lips putting on a oh-so-fake smile
just to brighten the day.
i so cant imagine how life can be like.
and i abhore the pain
sigh :(
what more could be a happy day.

alright, amath camp was shit.
went to seletar reservoir after that.
had a walk, then home.
ohmy. i have to go
mum's nagging again. wth
i so had enough of shit.
RARR> i'm stressed out.
TOTALLY.
goodbye

amath camp. rarr. ponned. -.- 22sept06

i wonder how i lived this life
troubles come and troubles go
i wish i could elucidate the problem
this onerous mind keep taunting me
somehow inside, i wish i could obliterate all
it feels like i'm in a vortex of wind
blown to subterranean dreams and myths
i did not exist
this was always the vulnerable me
i never feared to hide it inside
some things are inevitable
but look to hte positive side of life
subtle bits of nitty gritty
no one will ever know
scudding emotions
who will ever feel ?
and i guess its all God's purpose
and i thank God for everything (:

i skipped staying in amath camp.
in that gross dirty classroom
with tables and chairs for you to sleep on
wth. thats like so ridiculous.
never been to such dumb camp.
and all the more we have to do maths the whole day.
pfftt
and i'm feeling so lethargic.
i couldnt take it anymore. heh
what more sleepless night there and not concentrating the next day.
what good do i have ?
total crap :[
yeap. and i ran away somehow w/o the teacher's permission.
and they had to call me back. but i dont care.
ill just give a parents letter tomorrow. what more !
rarr it just sucks.
i regreted wanting to go, but i dont have a choice.
sigh :(

life really sucks now.
i'm so glad to have God in my life.
without Him, nothing will go right.
anyway, nothing really go right for me now.
sighsighsigh :(
i hate it alot ! i'm all so stressed out.
broken into pieces.
and i cant juxtapose myself.
i just burst into tears and cry.
but only the Lord knows whats happening.
and He is always there for me.
yup, so ill have to look at the postive side of life
and what God has done for me.

so why not everyone just think about what God has done for you.
even though you dont believe . ohwell.
i think everyone should be blessed with what they have.
cause there are more unfortunate people out there.
ponder and think -
goodbye. i need my beauty sleep for tomorrow's amath camp till 6pm
ohmygoodness.
-faints
good night.
<3

21sept.2006. np math carnival

i'm all tired out with the math carnival at np till 5 plus
and i dont have the mood to do a single thing
except that i have to complete my speech and social studies.
but i only did some. pfftt
i'm so giving excuses not to study.
heh (:

the math carnival was alright
not as i had expected
the clowns and balloons we expected to see
aww how sad. HAHA :D
and we ended up in the comp lab to do a stupid emath test for 40mins
ahh well, i scored damn badly cause i didnt know how to do alot and i skipped some
hohoho too lazy to think.
its soo lame. surfed the net while waiting for the other school's to finish.
cause we arrived like the earliest.

went to some convention hall and waited for clementi town sec
they are soo damn slow. we played a memory game
and everyone was just taking the photo so we could get everything correct
thats how great our memory is. :)
started and played the business game.
and me sophia irvin and another guy for ctss was doing the logistics
it was damn hilarious. we had to transport the 'shells' to the customer on this styrofoam plate connected with four strings. and there's lots of ppl who will 'blow' your shell down.
how irritating lahh. and we cheated alot by just taking everything with our hands which wasnt allowed. it was damn hilarious. and i hate that guy who kept disturbing us.
i went and blew him in his face. pfftt =.=
heehee i was damn mean.
and we managed to get second. OMG !
thats like the most unexpected thing
i thought they would say that we cheated the most. quite true though
and we got chocolates to share ! YAY (:
yummyumm i took alot. :\

we got lots of souveniers back.
and all we wanted was the chops so that we could get our gift.
HA :D
yeaps. went back to school and dad fetched me home
i think we're abit high today. making hella loads of noise
& i saw my primary school friend jinghui there ! HAHA
i didnt dare say hi, afraid it was the wrong guy. lol
alright, i'm off to play my piano.
i'm dreading to go to school
i dont wanna go for amath camp. sigh :(
goodbye
<3>
i love you irvinong,
i gave you two kisses today. wasnt that great ?
heh

i love my piano (: christofori's dream<3

i'm here to say




i'm in love with my piano !
<3
heheheh.
with almost 4 hours of practice
HAHA :]
yanjingtang eye candy. lol
sophia, you took me for granted
and stop thinking so much about your doudou.
heeheehee.
and stop smiling and laughing to yourself.
i wont take you for granted okayy !
goodbye to do my zuowen

i love you girlfriends(:

those laughters we shared
the smiles we had
and the craps we crapped
those memories will be forever
i love you girls (:
(you know who)

heheh.
i really enjoy every day of my life
even though how stress and unhappy the day is
all sorts of laughter and crap
brightens the day so much
brighter than the sunshine
put on a cheerful smile each day
never fails to brighten my day
it was all those nonsensical stuff that made us laugh so badly
and i want these memories to lay on forever
cause i love you so (:
<3>
I LOVE YOU SOPHIA IRVIN SHANDY !

alrights, i'm not supposed to be here
but i passed by the comp and saw it on.
so ill use for awhile and off to books.
listen to my christofori dream song
its soooo heavenly . LOVE
and he plays like so so beautifully.
omg i swear you'll faint.
almost like the one in the cd.
it was so so . . -speechless-
and so, i really want to take up piano again.
i hope i can ; sighhh
without practice, it wont be perfect

after school went with irvin to christofori music school
she wanna check out the enrolment stuff.
and we stood outside the school for so long
LOL and started laughing like mad.
super hilarious . HAHAHA
okay and irvinong wants me to play piano
goodbye.

17sept06 , sunday. yumyumm. coffeebean w phia study

crimson lips curved into a smile in the mirror
how could i pretend that everything's no matter
tossing in bed with tears in my eyes
i live with the pain stored inside
those dark dreams and subterranean myths haunt me every night
scudding emotions ; disconcerting burts of candour
i wish to juxtapose broken pieces of my life
& maybe you could help me

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i just swallowed like 100tons of fats
omg! i shant eat lunch tomorrow.
i'm super bloated now with canadian pizza and kfc chicken
:] rarrr
& i touched the comp before i could do anything else.
ohmy, i'm all so stressed out but i dont feel like studying
oh great, i must study super super hard now.
ughhh ! i hate it.
and exams in less than 2 weeks time
i havent done my revision or whatsoever
ohhh crap shermaine !

went to westmall coffeebean with sophia to study.
and its more like 80% talking reality, 10% studying 10% sophia's eye candy
HAHAHA omg
sophia, you sure did 'scream' soooo loudly that everyone could hear you.
i'm sure you want to have 10 eye candies. lol
yupp, i wasnt in the mood to study. it was frezzing cold even with a jacket
and my head was starting to hurt. stress lahh
the coffeebean ppl told us that studying is not allowed like 1000 times but we still didnt care.
left at 5 plus, went to popular to look for guide and assessment books
and we look for half and hour. but i bought nothing.
seeing those words in the book gives me headaches
alright, off to bathe and finish up my homework
tata
bye
stereotypes colour our opinion,and our perceptions distort the reality

hehehehe. 13september2006

hellooooooo
shermaine was here (:
but she was not supposed to be here !
heehee

and i havent started doing a single shit tonight.
only a tiny winny little bit at plaza
ha :]
alright,
everyone please start your mugging
for end of years.
i know i'm not doing it now.
ohwells, i'm getting my arse off the chair right now.
i cannot get stuck here.
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE
<3

10september. school starts tmr. study w sophia at plaza

hello.
i better start blogging before i bloghop.
hah (:
just got home not long ago.

church today.
had the teacher's day lunch in church.
yumm food. i so love sashimi
<3
then studied with seeyue and pearly.
end up doing 2 questions of circular measure only.
i got qn 2 wrong so i gave up.
hahaha.
even though i actually did it before.
crapp ! :]
so did nothing.
waited for sophiachong to come down from town.
yeaps, board 171 at my church bustop, to meet her in the bus.
head to plaza. and we were how dumb.
we didnt know that it stops at the bustop directly at plaza.
so we had to walk :\

walked ard for sophiachong to get her food/snacks
then went to mac and study.
and stupid people dont wanna give us cushion seats !
-frowns.
bought food and studied.
and soon, the stupid woman at macs chased us away.
MANAGER : sorry but youre not allowed to study here. the seats are meant for our customers.
US : -.-
---------------------------
what the crap. we are customers too. we ordered food okay!
and we havent drank our drink yet. pfftt.retarded !
ohcrap, so we still continue studying.
and she walked around telling everyone to leave.
wthh. then she came to us again and told us the same thing.
and she asked us to close our book.
but sorry,we dont have any books.only papers.
we close papers still can do you know. dumb arse shit
okay fine, we were nice so we left.
went to the library and borrowed books. (:
& i wanted like the whole library shelf.
teehee :D

wanted to go home but it was raining.
so got stucked.
went to mos and continue doing amath.
managed to finish andden home (:
the rain stopped by then.
reach home for yummy dinner.
sushi and sashimi ! YAY (:
i cant stay here for long, better get off or ill never will
i love you sophiachong( & your purple heels) and irvinong
<333>
its horror tomorrow :(
school starts and that sucks.
it rhymes. heh
bye -

mugg. at plaza with sophia. 9sept. BBQ

woked up at 8 plus today.
changed and all.
went with mum,dad and sis to the woodlands food factory there
mum wants to buy salmon and all.
and i went into the cold room where they keep all the stuff
omg ! so cool. everything's frozen
including soup like clam chowded, tomato.
HAHA (:
and i was just wearing fbt shorts and tshirt. lol
it was like -30 degrees or something.

yeaps, then dad sent me down to plaza
reached at 10.15am.
rather early cause i'm supposed to meet sophia at 11am
and she's always late. hah
so went down to ntuc and bought our motivation!
teehee :D
chocojellies and hello panda !
LOVE
<3

went to mac and did phy tys
she came, ate our lunch.
then started studying ((:
did some physic tys and amath.
left at 4 plus, went to the petshop again.
omgomg. the doggies are damn cute !
i want i want. :(
yeah, and i know sophia wants to french kiss the pug so badly.
they're so playful keep biting each other.
-melts. i so want a furry pet now.

reached home ard 5.15pm
and they were almost leaving for church.
ohwell, i thought the bbq starts at 7.30,but it actually starts at 5.30
i shouldnt have gone home then. pfftt
rested for awhile then left at ard 6.
and it doesnt even look like any bbq.
more like catered food but some are bbq.
so not appetizing. -.- ate very little only.
the place was like how stuffy and hot. so we went up to 2nd level and sit.
(:
reached home at 8 plus. like finally ! i was dying to go home.
hahahaha
it was like howwww boringggg. gahh

tomorrow church andden study again !
heehee.
and its the last day of holiday :(
i just wonder how i spent my hols.
by mugging so hard.
my brains are gonna burst !
i dont wanna go to school !
RARRRRR
toodles, bye
<3

8SEPTEMBER2006. AFTER CO(:

back from co (:
heehee.
ended early today at 4.30pm
didnt have to go for dazhu cause we had xiaozhu.
YAYS (:
didnt really play much.
ohman, i miss mrgoh so muchh.
i dont want that teacher :(
she suck but asking us to play other songs.
pffftt & i was very reluctant to play.
rarr, i'm showing attitude.
there's 3 more weeks of co before exam starts.
how sucky is that. and we must come to choose the new syf costume.
sighhh

mummy just came back with strawberry strudal.
omg, it looks damn yummy with fresh big strawberries inside.
yumyumm. :D
gonna mug tonight. and study tomorrow with sophia
<3
love
and say bye to holidays
:( ughhhh
offfffffffff,
bye
I LOVE SOPHIACHONG ! (:
<3

boredbored morning. 8sep06. co later.

i'm bored this morning.
and i dont feel like doing any work.
oh crap.
and i have to go co in 1 hours time.
worst of all, by myself.
pfft. okay nvm.
i shall be good for today (:

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sigh.
@($*&@%(**@
so bored bored bored.
i just realised its friday and holiday's ending soon
omg ! so fast. rarrrr
and all i have been doing is STUDY ! lol
:]
and i have been thinking of -----
ohwells,
i <3>
heheheh.
i'm off. BYE

you light up my life, youre the one in my life. amath mugg day. flooded brain

finally, my eyes away from those numbers and words (:
and now, my brain is flooded with amath-circular measure.
ughh ! :\
reached sch at ard 8am.
8.30-11.30am -> amath(function)
11.30-12.30pm -> physics(mass,weight, density)
12.30-1.30pm -> lunch break
1.30-4.00pm -> amath(circular measure)

omg! i nearly died.
and we did 2 questions of circular measure in 2 hours.
how productive. it means that in exam, we can only do like 2 qns.
HAHA. no la, maybe its just circular measure.
we need thinking skills. GAH.
brains + being slow = lots of time :]
heehee.
so in the end didnt have the test.
stayed in school to continue doing till 6pm.
daddy fetch sophia and irvin to cwp.
and HOME (: heh.

there's no remedials tomorrow, but i have darn co !
i dont wanna go. screw it ! pfft.
time to mugggg. school's gonna start. sigh :(
i think amath camp's gonna be so much worst.
rarrrr ! :\
yeaps, thats it.
byebye.
happy studying girlfriends (:
---- you. <3

every night,
playing with those memories again.
youre always so sweet, youre my everything
you light up my life, youre the one in my life

physics amath remedial. (: buddish society. omg HAHA

hahaha okay.
i've been laughing for the past few minutes with irvinong.
about -------- society as a cca in some poly. omg ! damn hilarious.
and i shant mention what we said , it is quite insulting. :\
okay, i shall not think about it anymore. LOL (:
yupp.
went to school today for a picnic.
just kidding, for phy and amath.
and we just kept eating throughout. sasauges, chocolates . .
its a picnic to us. hahaha :)
physics was real boring. didnt listen much, kept talking crap.
then went for lunch at vista.
& we saw a cat in 7-eleven. omgosh, damn cute. it was sitting in the middle of the doorway.
HAHA.

amath sets in ava room. not to bad, have aircon !
(: heehee.
alright, i have one conclusion to make.
i am slow . slow . just S L O WWWW

yeah. had to do questions for tb andden a test.
which we're not supposed to discuss but we somehow did.
and managed to got all correct and go home (:
and i just did amath simultaneous questions again from assesment.
i cant think of anything else to do cause the rest are like so so difficult
upon seeing, you wont have mood to do anymore.
so now, i better get off the comp to finish my work and do some english :D
heh.

the channel eight show just now was so sad so touching.
omgosh, tears-
sighh.
bye <3>

bubbles (:

05september06. tuesday family day (:

finally back ! (:
out the whole day with the family. family time again ((:
heheheh.
went to the new tiongbahru market for lunch. its really big.
there's like 100 stalls there. omg ! and there's like 1000 varieties of desserts to choose from.
my eyes go blurr seeing them. LOL :D
yeah, then sent grandma home. went up mount faber for whatever reason.
i didnt want to walk, so i sat there and enjoy the scenery. pfft
then went to visit my beloved dog , bubble (:
YAY :)
she shaved her hair cause its hard to maintain. but still as adorable. omg !
damn cute :] <333>
and when we left she followed us into the lift.
how sad when she knew she could not follow :(
hahaha

okay, went to eat again somewhere. eat eat eat the whole day. lol
yeaps, then bought groceries at clementi ntuc. CHOCOLATE ! hohoho
and home (:
yumyumm. tomorrow's school and i dred going. sigh :\
9am - 4pm. OMG ! faints-
i'm sure gonna sleep. sighsigh-
and i need like loads of food tomorrow or ill surely die.
right ? right.

how sad i cant upload any pics. =\
okays, i'm offf. oblivious to the surroundings.
byeeeeee :D
<3>

i'm dead tired
after searching for blogskins ; omg !
finally i'm done (:
heheheh.
<3>
i'm off.
& i so didnt do any mugging tonight.
hoho
bye :D

ha-wow-ian. mugging starts ! holiday now now now. sigh.

hello (:
finally get to use the comp. yay !
yesterday's VISA was great. ha-WOW-ian (:
but i got burnt by the flaming paper :( it was part of the game.
and it hurts so badly yesterday. now its better :D
yupp.
reached home at 10pm bathed and slept :)
woke up at 10 this morning.
ate yumyumm breakfast. sausage & ham with bread.
heehee :]
then got started with my work.
browsed through emath but cant think of what chapter to do.
so did amath. simultaneous equations. how wonderful right.
HAHAHA, it was quite hard though.
ate lunch. then tried doing indices. which sucks alot.
i dont know why but i hate it. so difficult. pfft
then went nearby to meet sophiachong to pass her my physics assesment book
waited for it to be photocopied. stood there to talk.
SOPHIACHONG , your doctor is real dumb. i cant imagine if he never called you back to tell you.
you will just dieeeee lah ! LOL

went home. didnt wanted to continue indices. tried doing factors of polynomials but its like so hard also.
sigh :( i suck at everything. and irvinong just have to call me to talk crap.
so we talked about cca in poly. omgomg. and she have to remember that special hilarious one.
and she laughed like for 5 minutes herself. nutcase :\
and she started talking crap which are like impossible. nonsensical stuff. tsk
after talking, ate icecream and went to bed. hahaha
i gave up doing amath. i was brain dead then. woke up ard 6.45pm
bathe ate and watched tv. now i'm here.
should be going off soon to get some work going (: i'm so so hardworking. HEE
yeaps, tomorrow will be the last day of my holiday. sigh
wed thurs fri will be like normal school day for me. how sickening ! RARR
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yesyes.
BYE :) mug mug mug mug
staring at my reflection

02september06. town, study study (: sophialoved.<3

i'm being good for not being online yesterday. study study (:
yesterday went down town with sophia.
she was how late. so i walked ard myself ! :]
went to fareast first. walked ard then she came.
looked for her dress, ate and went to forever21.
then took mrt down to bugis. got my bag finally (:
i know sophiachong loves it. i wont mind sophia ;
hehehe
finally reached home at 5 plus. watched tv the whole night.
then did physic tys at night. sleep (:
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today woke up real early at 7am.
changed and went for breakfast with the family.
jalankayu rotiprata. yumm. wasnt that great;
was still early, went to upper peirce reservoir for a walk.
& i learn something new, i always thought peirce was spelled as pierce. lol
yeaps. then fetch bro to church first then went plaza.
i was early again. studied in mac then sophia came.
ate and practiced emath. and i only know the basics till now.
ughh trigo is real hard and it sucks.
brother came to find me,
and at 2 plus we were chatting cause i didnt know how to do my math.
left at 3 plus.
omg the dogs rabbit and hamsters at the pet shop is damn cute !! :D
i want i want. haha
reached home ard 4 and slept :\ heehee
i'm gonna continue doing my emath later. stress stress.
i cannot play anymore, study hard !
hohoho going to school 3 out of 5 days.
from 8-4 . how stressing.
sigh :(

OH I SO LOVE GIRLS (:
<3